Thanks to everyone for commenting!  I’ve had a difficult couple of months and it was really nice to hear from people.  

I’ve summarized my replies to reviews on AO3 and FFNet by category, below:

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Kaiba’s reaction to seeing Atem in his dream:  I wanted to create the sense that Kaiba was so tired, stressed out and torn with wanting Atem and trying to avoid admitting it, that once he actually was touching Atem, he kind of crumbled in a the bigger they are, the harder they fall kind of way.  After spending days denying that he was feeling anything, when he finally does see Atem again he’s just overwhelmed by everything he’s put off feeling. But I think that for Kaiba, believing it’s a dream makes it safer and makes it easier for him to acknowledge his own emotions – that’s why he keeps repeating that it was a dream.  In a way, he was clinging to that belief because that allowed him to be honest about his own emotions in a way he would find difficult awake, so he keeps repeating, "This is a dream," as often as needed!

Kaiba and Atem sorting out their feelings for each other: I think Kaiba has spent a long time pushing aside grief, sort of trying to bury it along with the rest of the past, but now he finds himself unable to do so quite as easily.  He has the ability to visit Atem again. But now I think he’s struggling to understand /why/ he wants to see him. And Atem is the first person, outside of Mokuba, that we see Kaiba form a real connection with. I think that it would be important to him, even if it’s something he’ll only acknowledge during a dream, to know that he is important to Atem as well.  

Atem does care, but he’s also not used to thinking in terms of what he wants; I think it’s easier for him to think in terms of what other people need or what he sees as a responsibility.  I can see him trying to make his feelings for Kaiba fit the mode of taking care of others as a responsibility that he’s used to.

Kaiba and Mokuba:  I could see Mokuba being upset when Kaiba left and when his return didn’t seem to make Kaiba happier.  And I could see Kaiba knowing that Mokuba is upset, but not really understanding why, and neither of them knowing how to talk to the other.  I have to admit that I can see this having comedic results as well as serious ones.

Dark Sides of Dimensions:  The ending of “The Dark Side of Dimensions” really felt more like a beginning to me, and I wanted to explore the emotions, hopes and uncertainties that seeing each other could bring up.  

Kaiba’s shirt: TBH, the image of Atem pulling at his shirt and buttons flying popped into my head.  I immediately thought, oh this is impossible because he’s wearing a turtleneck and buttons wouldn’t fly off like that… oh wait… this is a dream!  I felt like the characters going to myself: It’s a dream! Anything can happen!

Thanks to RedSchmetterling: Thank you so much!  I try to tell stories where half the story is what’s actually going on and the other half is what the characters are thinking and feeling – which might or might not align with what’s happening.  I’m glad you like my stories!

The link to Chapter 5 on AO3 is here:

The link to Chapter 5 on FFNet is here:

I got a story!

  • Apr. 18th, 2019 at 11:21 AM
One of my Fandom Trumps Hate stories has come in!

Birdsong of the Spheres (1429 words) by The_Exile
Fandom: Original Work
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Sentient Spaceship/Male Spaceship Pilot
Additional Tags: Spaceships, Romance, Interspecies Romance, sentient spaceships, Music, Fandom Trumps Hate
Summary: Sieglinde and Reinhart investigate a malfunctioning planetary soundsystem. Their technical discussion turns to more poetic talk of birds and opera, then confessions about their feelings for each other.

The worldbuilding on this one is subtle and utterly gorgeous! I asked for sentient spaceships and interspecies romance, and talked about how much I love intimacy and trust and mutual admiration -- and this is all of that, and more!

Go, read, and leave comments for my wonderful author!
the theme for this month's round at [community profile] fandom10in30 was alphabet, meaning all of the icons had to follow a pattern of the alphabet but you could start at any letter. this month's theme was really interesting (although kind of difficult lol) and inspired me to try some new techniques and styles i don't usually do! i hope you like them!

10 icons + 13 alts )
Another long but worthwhile passage I didn't want to lose with the return of this book to the library. Warnings for everything you might expect given the title of this post:

Though the United States was now [in the early 2000s] providing nearly twice as much to the global effort against AIDS as the rest of the world's richest governments combined, those billions of dollars brought with them a legion of problems. The Bush administration concertedly began to use the funds to impose destructive policies on the governments of poorer countries, the United Nations, and grassroots and civil society groups. At precisely the point when Bush was insisting that the world accept his trumped-up claims about "weapons of mass destruction" in Iraq, those diktats were yet more proof of his schoolyard-bully approach to foreign relations.

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—Siddharth Dube, An Indefinite Sentence: A Personal History of Outlawed Love and Sex

Most of the above isn't exactly news to me—I was doing peer education with Planned Parenthood during this period, so I remember a lot of the Bush administration's more egregious anti-sex bullying, although I was focused on its domestic effects rather than its results abroad—but Dube lays it all out super clearly. And horrifically.

In the subsequent chapter he details how the US used its disingenuous conflation of consensual sex work with human trafficking to conduct raids on exactly the sex-worker-led AIDS prevention organizations that had been demonstrating such amazing results in reducing transmission rates in India. US-led teams of Indian police kicked in doors, abused and beat women sex workers, jailed them with no clear charges, and even publicly accused the long-time activist Meena Seshu (executive director of sex-workers' collective Sangram/VAMP, which had forgone US funds and refused to sign the administration's prostitution gag rule) of colluding in human trafficking, in an attempt to discredit her and her organization. The Bush/Cheney/Rove administration was evil, y'all.

An Analysis of Bakugou in Chapter 1 (BNHA)

  • May. 25th, 2018 at 5:06 PM
this was going to be a quick meta post about bakugou and self-confidence in general, but i ended up having too much to say just about his expression in this one panel from chapter one lol

this is his face the first time bakugou realises that he was wrong. that he underestimated midoriya, that he needed help, and that he’s not strong enough to fight of a villain completely on his own. this also forces him to see the gap between him and all might, who just earlier in this chapter he boasted about rising above. bakugou’s never ever had to question his own strength until this moment, something that can largely be blamed on the adults around him and how they treated him as he was raised. regardless, for the first time in his life, bakugou is made to feel weak. i think that’s the beginning of a central theme in his character arc.
and so it continues (in lapslock i'm afraid) )

Watching MHA

  • Apr. 18th, 2019 at 10:59 AM
So I got through My Hero Academia season 2 recently, and I'm thinking about it a bit before I move on to season 3.

It is certainly an example of a show where "it gets better" applies. Not that it was BAD early on, exactly, but it took a while for it to get really good. It wasn't something where I was all, "oh boy I have GOT to watch the next episode!" for a long time. It took me a while to just get through season 1. I got more interested when we hit the sports festival, and the hype grew from there.

Character-wise... Midoriya is a great protag and I love him. I also really like Iida, and I've been pretty sure for a while that if I got into shipping for this fandom I'd be shipping those two. It's not one of the juggernaut ships, but after looking at AO3 it seems popular enough. I really like Tsu too. She's not as major a character so the show delivering a good story about her internship was a nice surprise. And of course I love All Might. How can you not love All Might?

I unfortunately got a bit spoiled on season 3. I have a pretty good idea of what's coming. I'm sad because I would have liked to see something like that 100% spoiler-free. Getting spoiled on this when I did made aspects of late season 2 very interesting to think about, especially regarding some of Bakugo's words and actions... but I'd rather this be stuff I'd pick up on during a rewatch, not the first time around. Sigh. Too late for that, unfortunately.

Apr. 18th, 2019

  • 10:41 AM
Two! Two evenings of some manner of yoga practice this week! Last night's was helped greatly by the discovery that someone uploaded the 1981 BBC Lord of the Rings radio play to YouTube and that is enjoyable to listen to while I stretch on the floor. So I might as well partake until they get forced to take it down.

House MD Fic: no escape from reality

  • Apr. 18th, 2019 at 10:57 AM
no escape from reality (100 words) by smallredboy
Chapters: 1/1
House M.D.
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Robert Chase
Additional Tags: Guilt, Moral Dilemmas, Drabble

The aftermarth of Chase's decisions. 

For [community profile]
drabble_zone [community profile] 100prompts.

Apr. 18th, 2019

  • 9:21 AM
I promise you, you're allowed to throw books away. No, neither the library not the local charity shop want your medical textbooks from the 60s or your falling-apart 80s fantasy paperbooks. If someone can get your book for 1c on Amazon, nobody fucking wants it.

Fic Posting the Second

  • Apr. 18th, 2019 at 12:25 AM
Accessories (1467 words) by Morgyn Leri
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: GoldenEye (1995), Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, James Bond (Craig movies)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Alec Trevelyan/James Bond (Daniel Craig), Gildis (OC)/Socha Silverbond (OC)
Characters: Alec Trevelyan, James Bond (Daniel Craig), Apris (OC), Gildis (OC), Socha Silverbond (OC)
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Crossover, Non-binary character, GFY
Series: Part 5 of Turncoat Wizards

Alec introduces James to Diagon Alley, and to Gringotts. This doesn't go quite to plan.

L-O-L, Yakitate!!

  • Apr. 17th, 2019 at 11:43 PM
I've been watching Yakitate!! Japan recently and am finally on the home stretch (Nine episodes left!), and I love it in all its ridiculous glory--Bring on the Iron Chef references! Bring on the extended Detective Conan reference and the episode that's just a twenty-five minute Naruto parody! Bring on the puns that I don't really get! Bring on every appearance of Kid, the most American of Americans!

I am here for the second ending, a.k.a. the best ending ever. I am here for Pierrot, the bestest clown ever and spoilers for the end of Pierrot's story. ) I am here for Kazuma calling Kuroyanagi and Pierrot "old ma--er, old pal!" every. single. time. he addresses them. I am here for Monica and Kuwabara's who-will-flinch-first, nearly naked romance. I am here for the surprise yakuza subplot!

But I am not sure I can buy that Austria is super famous for its jams and that most Austrian of jam doughnuts, the Berliner.


  • Apr. 17th, 2019 at 8:04 PM
• Wow, I suck at this. Has it really been almost four whole months since I've done this? So much for participating on Dreamwidth.

• Anyway, I'm back on my bullshit. Going to Star Wars Celebration was maybe the best decision I could have made for getting my enthusiasm for Star Wars back. It's really silly admittedly, but it was tough feeling as burned out and bereft as I was for a while there. Collecting a new fandom or two and giving other shows/movies a try helped, but there's nothing like getting off the damned internet for a few days to remember that even though Star Wars fans hate Star Wars, they also really do love Star Wars more than anyone else. The enthusiasm and joy I saw in others throughout the weekend, the brief moments of camaraderie with other fans when we got caught stanning TLJ or being like "ship and let ship, man" were delightful reminders that the internet really isn't the beginning or ending of Star Wars fandom.

• On that note, this means I'm H Y P E D to get caught back up on the EU. Yes, even Thrawn, thanks Zahn. That pitch for Thrawn: Treason was too much for my Krennic-loving heart to stand. So now I'm gonna suffer, but I'm gonna be... happy about it. Maybe.

• A very cool side effect of the whole thing is I'm very motivated and inspired to write and not even just fanfic, shock shock shock. There were several writers/publishing panels and they were all great in different ways and I'm revitalized. I've been doing an unofficial Camp Nano goal of 50K for the month and I think I'm going to easily pass that.

Auto wrong can byte me (historical re-use)

  • Apr. 17th, 2019 at 9:07 PM
Yes, I'm reusing that as a post title. Is there any way on a Mac mini to get into the 'so helpful' engine of destruction? Naturally when I'm on the internet I type in the ways of the internet and correct-athorian 'assistance' is harassing me (harsh ing would have been my choice, but I'll leave it as my Overlord wills.)

autowrong, why does it work differently on every platform, there are so many words that do not conform, the re-wronging really needs to stop

(this is a flash in the pan from seven months ago)


Fic Posting

  • Apr. 17th, 2019 at 10:10 PM
Parallel Experience (2547 words) by Morgyn Leri
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Jupiter Ascending (2015)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Tony Stark, Stinger Apini, Diomika Tsing, Jupiter Jones, Steve Rogers, Phil Coulson, Pepper Potts, Caine Wise
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Crossover, Universe swapping, Character Study, GFY

An unexpected switching of places leads to two very different experiences.

What I'm Doing Wednesday

  • Apr. 17th, 2019 at 8:01 PM
A History of Europe by JM Roberts. Not a great book, but not a bad one either. It really falls apart in the last section, what with trying to account for the end of the Soviet era as it was happening and in attempting to defend indefensible Thatcherite policies. I found the focus on Western Europe after the fall of the HRE really irritating, but Roberts was old school Oxford and it shows. The point of zooming through this brick was to figure out what I wanted to read more about.

currently reading: Medieval Europe by Chris Wickham. Published 2016 and it shows, what with the focus on archaeology, texts, and economics. I really appreciate his use of "unfree" to describe people who weren't quite slaves but also weren't at liberty. The prose, however, is both super-dense and assumes a familiarity with the subject that I don't really have yet. But what I wanted was something to show me how feudalism happened, what was there before aristocracies, where the money went, etc., and this is doing that.

If anyone has recs of early medieval Eurasian history, plz comment? I already know I want to find a good history of Byzantium and the East. And also the Magyars. And also...well, everything that was elided as the "Dark Ages" back in World Civ, because the scholarship has come so far.

Happy Zombie Weekend!

so much growing. The other day mom asked for a portion of my asparagus fern. I pulled it out of the pot to find it entirely root bound, every bit of dirt from just under the mulch to the bottom of the pot GONE. Wow. I have a sneaking feeling that's the case for everything, but there's only so much root pruning and repotting I can manage, esp given my stupid fatigue levels. Doh!



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