Title: 2 and 4
Fandom: Sherlock
Character: John Watson
Rating: PG
Length: 141 words
Spoilers: Exceptionally vague ones for Series 2, Episode 3
Warning: very angsty
Summary: John takes the express train to stage 2 (anger) and stage 4 (depression) f the Kubler-Ross Model



There’s a hall of mirrors in John’s mind, nothing as impressive as Sherlock’s mind palace ever was, but it does the work. It’s a long corridor, and John decides he can finally see himself the way so many others have.

Of course they’re all just variations on a single theme. Desperation. Whether it’s the irritation of years of partners who couldn’t put up with him, the terror of soldiers he couldn’t save, the bewilderment of everyone who wondered why he trailed after Sherlock like a loyal dog, and even the madman who used him like the pawn he is, they’re all seeing the same picture of one John Watson. Desperate. Desperate for approval. Desperate to feel something. Desperate to feel anything.

It makes John something easy to use and forget, replaceable.

And in the end it’s not enough to save anyone.