Title: Lost
Fandom: Star Trek Enterprise
Rating: PG
Length: 150 words
Content notes: Set during the Season 4 episode "Affliction"
Author notes: This is based on an established Archer/Reed relationship and is Malcolm's voice. I drew inspiration from an Enterprise vid by Linsey to the song "Strong Enough" - Stacie Orrico.
Summary: Malcolm knows he's lost too much.


I try to ignore the silent sentry outside the cell wondering why I’m here. I know all too well.

I’m trying to focus on what I can say when I get another chance to explain. But my thoughts spiral out of control… like my life, the one I never imagined for myself. I’d never opened up to anyone… but I let Jonathan in, and found that I could love. How could anything make me betray him, lie to him… destroy the trust between us?

His voice cracks the silence. Has it been an hour? He’d wait that long before coming to me here. The words are harsh – it’s the Captain’s voice, not Jonathan’s – but it’s his eyes that break my heart. He’ll see my unshed tears as he searches my face for answers.

Truth is a chasm between us that I want so much to bridge.

And don’t know how.