Title: First Lesson
Fandom: Persona 4
Rating: NC-17 (NSFW)
Length: 2,070 Words
Content Notes: Masturbation and frank discussion of sexuality.
Author Notes: This is a fill for the Commander of Kink badge.
Summary: Post-canon. Yū and Yōsuke, home from university and starting a relationship, discuss sexuality, past experiences, and taking the next step.

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Kink(s): According to kink_bingo and the kink_wiki, masturbation is less of a kink and more of a modifier that can be applied to other kinks, but, according to seasonofkink, it is a kink all unto itself, and I am going by that definition for this challenge. As for how this fits the prompt, not to be too cheeky, but a cumshot is a shot, after all.

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Yōsuke said, sitting next to Yū on his futon at the Dōjima house, his hands on his knees, "So, okay, we're both living in Inaba for good, and we're dating. There's that." Yū nodded. "And we've already got it out there that I'm just flailing when it comes to the whole gay thing. I don't have any idea how this is supposed to go, now that it's a thing." Yū nodded again. "So we're here to talk about it. Because that's what we said at the start: We've got to make sure we're communicating."

"That's right," Yū said, "and I'm glad you asked me." He had a smirk on his face. "First things first, Yōsuke: This isn't necessarily a gay thing. You like girls." Yōsuke nodded. "You also like me, even though I'm a guy. And I'm the same way. I like girls, and I like you. So, you see, it's really more of a bi thing." A small laugh. "Liking one guy doesn't make you permanently gay. It's not like it's some kind of magical transformation. It's just one more thing that you happen to be into."

Yōsuke replied, "Well, yeah, I know that, but, if I told my folks, they'd say it was a gay thing, and I'd be stuck with that. Not really ready to have that conversation yet. It was hard enough telling Kanji –" And asking him for forgiveness for before, he left unsaid. "Everybody on the team's been pretty cool about it, though, but I probably shouldn't be surprised after everything we've been through together."

Yū let the silence stretch for a moment before he said, "So you're probably worried about what happens now. I'm guessing something happened at university? Maybe the same thing that got you to change your mind and ask me out in the first place?" Only Naoto could match his powers of perception.

"Y-Yeah," Yōsuke admitted. "Well, more like something didn't happen. I met a guy, we hit it off, became friends." He paused. "Stayed like that for a couple of months, then he asked me if, maybe, I was, y'know –" He looked sheepish. "I mean, he didn't come right out and say it. You know how I am. I overreact, and he picked up on that. So I thought about it, and –" He shook his head. "– I couldn't say I wasn't, and he could tell, as soon as that came out of my mouth, that I had somebody specific in mind. And that was you." His face turned red. "I mean, he was cool about it. He wished me luck, and we're still friends, but that's it."

"I'm flattered," Yū said, "but I'm glad you were able to figure that out without flipping out. Sounds like it went a lot better for you than it does for a lot of people." A pause. "Something like that happened to me, too, Yōsuke, but it went a little farther than that. I met a guy, we hit it off, decided to try a casual thing."

Yōsuke nodded and took a second to process what Yū had said before asking, "You wanna talk about it? I mean, you don't have to, but I'd like to know."

"I think it's fair that you know," Yū said. "I mean, I think I've always known, on some level, that I'd be open to girls and guys, but it's like you said: You bring guys into it, it can change everything for you pretty quickly. I haven't told Dōjima yet, either." He looked at the wall in front of him, as if looking through it to the past days he had spent in Inaba. "It didn't really hit me until I moved here the first time, but there was so much going on that I didn't really process it until later. That's what university did for me. I figured out a lot about that while I was there."

"Because you met a guy," Yōsuke said, leaning forward and nodding slowly.

"Yeah," Yū said, "and he was a lot more experienced than I was, so he offered to teach me. He wasn't really looking for anything deeper, just fooling around, but he wanted to make sure I knew how to be responsible, know what I was doing, clear up some misconceptions." He closed his eyes, took a deep breath. Not like him to need a second to gather his wits. "If you think I'm a safe person, Yōsuke, I'd kind of like to play the same role for you. I'm pretty confident I can do that."

"Well, uh –" That seemed to catch Yōsuke off his guard. "– that'd probably be the best way, if you're in the know about this stuff, but –" He fidgeted. "– uh, what does that mean, exactly, you teaching me how to – ?" He did not want to say it.

"I'm pretty sure it doesn't mean what you think it means," Yū said, exercising his patience. "And we're not going to do that, anyway. You'd be surprised how many guys don't do that." Yōsuke still had questions in his eyes. "Okay. Basics. I know you're not too big on hand-holding and kissing, but that's not what you're worried about, anyway. You're worried about ... what happens next, after that."

"You're right," Yōsuke replied, "because, if it doesn't involve –"

"It doesn't have to," Yū said quickly, taking another deep breath. "All right. If you're having sex –" He corrected himself. "If you're doing something sexual, what's the first sexual thing you do?" He paused. "When you're alone."

"Well, uh, yeah, you jerk off. Right? Not a trick question?" Yū nodded. "But that's alone. Obviously, if you're doing ... gay stuff, there's somebody else there."

"Don't call it gay stuff, Yōsuke," Yū chided. "Okay, look, I'll spell it out for you. If you're with a guy, you don't have to do the one thing. It's just as much about blowjobs, handjobs, and other things." Yōsuke turned red again, but he nodded. "When I got involved with the guy who taught me, the first thing we did, once we decided we wanted to do stuff, was jerk off together. It was that simple."

"So –" Yōsuke searched for words. "– is that what you're asking me to do here?" He let the question hang in the air, and he looked nervous, but not averse.

"No," Yū said, "because I know you're probably going to need a little more time than that, Yōsuke. Not only are you new to this, but you're so used to reacting to it in a negative way that I'd never expect you to jump right in with both feet."

"Well, what are you putting on the table, then, partner?" Yōsuke asked.

"Instead of asking you to do it with me," Yū said slowly, folding his hands together, "I'd ... like to show you. Just me. You don't have to do anything but see. That's all." His face changed, showing a hint of embarrassment. "Look at it this way, man. It's a private thing, everybody does it. You, me, everybody. But I want to share that private thing with you and have it be our first step. ... Okay?"

Yōsuke thought about it for a long second before saying, "Okay." He paused. "Wow. Guess this is going to get pretty real, pretty fast, huh?"

"You can tell me to stop at any time," Yū said, "or ask me any question you want. I'm going to be an open book here. Okay?" Yōsuke nodded. "Ready for this?"

"I don't know if I am," Yōsuke admitted, "but that's what we're here to find out."

Yū nodded and took one more deep breath before standing up and taking off his polo shirt, dropping it on the floor before turning to Yōsuke and waiting for his nod before unbuckling his belt, then unbuttoning and unzipping his slacks, taking them off and folding them before laying them on the table, pausing only to take off his socks. He looked to Yōsuke again, standing there in his gray boxers.

"O-okay, partner." Yū could tell his heart had started beating fast. "Let's do this." And Yū did, dropping his boxers and using one foot to push them aside, his cock already starting to lengthen as Yōsuke watched. "W-wow. I mean, I've seen you naked before, but ... it's not like seeing you in the locker room, huh?"

"No, it's not," Yū said, "and I'm pretty sure I said the same thing when I did this at university." His cock had already started to rise, the head swelling as it emerged from his foreskin. "Um. Sorry. Not really a whole lot of build-up here."

"No, no, it's okay!" Yōsuke said quickly. "I'm the same way. If I, uh, know I'm gonna get off, it's hard even before I click the Play button on my PC."

"Well, this isn't porn," Yū said softly, "this is the real deal. It's different." His cock stood tall, fully hardened, pulsing with his heartbeat, a bead of clear liquid forming at his tip. "Ready for what's next?" He coughed. "I think ... it'll be pretty quick."

"Um, yeah," Yōsuke said, "I'm ready. Wanna sit down next to me?"

"Yeah," Yū said, returning to his seat on the futon, taking his cock in his hand and giving it one slow stroke, his breath catching immediately. "Doesn't usually get this hard, this fast." Another stroke, turning into a regular rhythm. "Even when I'm in a hurry." As he stroked, he explained, "First time I did it with somebody else, it took a little while because I was nervous, but he was really patient with me."

Yōsuke asked, after a second, "Did you get to handjobs later?"

"We did," Yū said, "after a few sessions." He closed his eyes and made a soft mmm noise. "That's different. If it's your own hand, you know exactly what you have to do. If it's somebody else's, you have to learn what works best for you." He smiled, blushing – unusual for him. "It's kind of cool to give instruction." He gave Yōsuke a sly look. "You can feel when a guy's about to come. They get extra hard for that one second. Didn't really appreciate that until I gave my first handjob."

"I believe you," Yōsuke said, swallowing hard. Upon seeing how flushed Yū already looked, he asked, "So, about that time already, huh?"

"Yeah," Yū said, speeding up his stroke, using his other hand to cradle and squeeze his balls as they tightened. No words passed between him and Yōsuke as the seconds ticked past, at least until he said, "O-Okay, here it comes." And Yōsuke nodded as Yū clenched his teeth, his cock spasming in his hand as it let fly once, twice, three times, the hot semen spattering his chest and belly, a little of it dripping down his knuckles as he finished, laying his head back and sighing.

"You're right," Yōsuke said, "it is different when you're up close and personal with the one doing it." He looked around the room. "I'll get you a towel, man."

"Top drawer," Yū murmured, smiling sheepishly, mostly to himself. After cleaning up, he sat where he was, still naked, and Yōsuke sat next to him, looking somewhere between relieved and still nervous. "What's on your mind?"

"I don't usually get naked to do it," Yōsuke said, talking quickly, "I just get it out and go, you know?" He looked down at himself. "I-I know that's all you wanted to do to start for today, but I've got a hard-on, and I don't think it's going away, so, uh, maybe –" He turned bright red. "– maybe I can show you how I do it? Now that we've gotten past that first bump, I think I'm ready to give this a shot."

"You don't have to do that today," Yū said, "but –" He smiled. "– not gonna lie, I'd really like to see it. Don't let me rush you, though. That wouldn't be fair."

"Oh, no, I think this is one time it's okay to rush," Yōsuke replied, his cock bulging beneath the fabric of his boxers as he unzipped his fly. "What do you think?"

"I think you're gonna get the hang of this faster than I thought," Yū said, laughing, inwardly thankful that Nanako and Dōjima were going to be gone all afternoon.

END.