Title: Goddess to a Nonbeliever
Author: clarahow // agentroxylancelots // charleybradburies (will be posted after challenge)
Fandom: Bones
Characters: Temperance Brennan (mentions of Angela Montenegro)
Pairing: Angela Montenegro / Temperance Brennan
Length: 250w
Rating: cautionary M for some deep and angsty stuff
Summary: What's a god to a nonbeliever who don't believe in anything? // Something that the pastor don't preach, something that a teacher can't teach.
Content Notes: Pretty sad and existential. References to canon.
Author Notes: Written for challenge #114: Chemistry. Title and summary are from 'No Church in the Wild' by Kanye West.
Also, it's a poem. In first person. (This is all hella new to me and I'm just crossing my fingers and hoping it works.) The style is based on the poetry form of rondeau.
The quote in the cut is from Angela.
Author's PS: The quote in the cut has "don't" as opposed to "do not" but it wouldn't format correctly and irked me so I changed it a bit.



I am not a believer but I want to believe
believe that love is eternal and transcendent
I am aching for the love I cannot reach
I am not a believer but I want to believe
I am weighed down by hunger for what I cannot see
being held tight by an intimacy resplendent
I am not a believer but I want to believe
believe that love is eternal and transcendent

love is a chemical process of sparks and illusion
and I am little more than electrons changing hands
a too-harsh handshake and a smile in seclusion
love is a chemical process of sparks and illusion
a messy amalgam of instinct and intrusion
bated breaths and heartbeats and blushing cheeks and chance
love is a chemical process of sparks and illusion
and I am little more than electrons changing hands

love is a chemical process which causes delusion
everyone wants to lose themselves in another person
you believe that love is transcendent and eternal
I want to believe that too
I am not a believer but I want desperately to believe

were I to lose myself in someone else
perhaps I would be less
lost

perhaps you -
you, girl of protons and summer and strokes of paint
in all the right places
you, girl who believes in me above all else
never static yet seldom lost and never wavering
woman for whom I feel affection soak me to the bone -
could find me
and give me a reason
to believe